My ‘Why’ | Northern Utah Photographer


Why am I a photographer?

Simply put, I suck at expressing myself in all other art forms.
I cannot draw or paint to save my life.
It takes a lot out of me to write and craft, but it comes out decent.
Photography comes naturally with ease.

I remember in my high school ceramics class I was to create a bowl.
This was my bowl:
I was asked what grade I felt I deserved, and I, without hesitation said and A!
Puzzled, my teacher told me to explain why.
I began… Its not technically perfect but it is perfect to me and I like it which is all that matters.
He explained the directions were to create a smooth even bowl, which this clearly was not.
(I have never followed directions very well.)
I did start out following the directions and I did at one point have a smooth even bowl, and then it folded and fell over.
I could have smashed it up and started over but I didn’t.
It was unique, it said something about me.
I made this roughly 12 years ago and it has moved with me across the ocean and back.  It is a reminder for many things. I also did get the A I felt I deserved. 🙂

Photography has rules, but photography is limitless and forgiving.
It took a lot of practice and soul searching and personally willing to put my all into every shot to be where I am.
I am a very closed person, I do not show my feelings, and certainly keep my emotions locked up pretty tight.

Completely contradictory in what I aim to capture every single time I pick my my camera.
I want all the emotion to show, I want the view to FEEL the image not just look at it.
During my MFA Photography program I was unconsciously forced me to learn about myself, understand who I am, and what I wanted to achieve.
One class in particular caused me to question why I chose to pursue this degree in the first place and where I wanted to go in life.
I stared at my bowl on my desk and realized I needed to go deeper and become vulnerable; and get over my fear of showing people that side of me.

I chose to be a photographer and use photography as an outlet because I don’t have to follow directions.
I can be authentically me every single time. Feeding my soul each time I pick up the camera.

Its been a while, but this raw personal post is a damn good blog circle come back!
Check out these posts next and lets find out WHY they do what they do.

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  • March 29, 2018 - 11:02 am

    Nicole Gulick - beautiful why! the bowl is totally unique and i love that it has traveled all over with you to remind you. beautiful emotion filled imagesReplyCancel

  • March 4, 2018 - 3:28 pm

    Kristi James - This just is beautiful. Photography and life can be so darn emotional. Salt Lake City and Northern Utah will be so lucky to have a photographer like you. A photographer that captures real, raw and beautiful emotion.ReplyCancel

  • February 28, 2018 - 7:00 pm

    Lydia - I loved everything about this blog — i wish i were closer to Northern Utah a good photographer is hard to come by!ReplyCancel

  • February 28, 2018 - 6:39 pm

    Katerina - It’s great seeing your “why” as a northern Utah photographer!ReplyCancel

  • February 28, 2018 - 4:42 pm

    Christie - Love your bowl story- it showcases what a creative artist you are and why are you a top Northern Utah photographer!!ReplyCancel

  • February 28, 2018 - 2:01 pm

    Chelsey - I love your content and what you had to share about yourself. This really connects with me and I’m excited you are in Utah because I have been searching for a good portrait photographerReplyCancel

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